I wish to gift myself, I wish to be my valentine

Matlabi ho ja zara matlabi , Duniya ki sunta hai kyun , khud ki bhi sun le kabhi …….

Well it’s a bollywood song which I like , especially its lyrics . Matlabi ho ja zara matlabi, duniya ki sunta hai kyun , khud ki bhi sun le kabhi . Really in our everyday life, we are most of the  times listening to others , feeling concerned  for others and working for others  . Sometimes I am listening to my  Boss, sometimes I am satisfying my hubby’s ego ,  sometimes I am cooking according to the family’s wishes. What’s this yaar ? Am I here to live according to Duniya ?? There comes this song to relieve me and make me happy . If not possible everyday , let me be Matlabi once in a while. Let me do what just My heart wishes, something that I really like , which brings the real smile to my soul. I  wish to gift myself My Real Smile .

myself Gift

Kuch baat galat bhi ho jaye , kuch der ye dil bhi kho jaye , Befikar Dhadkane, is tarah se chale , shor goonje ….

These form the next lines of the song . Oohooo……How true ?? I am a human being yaar , certain things may go wrong at times. Why do I need to listen to others if some sort of mistake occurs ? I wish my heart to be  undisturbed in all situations . It happens many times that my mind finds itself in a fix , unsure of other’s  nature of response , whether to ask hubby about going alone at a party , or to ask Boss about a leave .Should I ask ?? No No I think I shouldn’t . I tell you  there are many many such moments when my brain cells start making some complex movements  & my heart starts zapping up tick -tock -tick-tock . But I don’t want things going this way . I wish to be relaxed , happy-go-lucky . I wish to gift myself Befikar Dhadkane.

So let me focus my attention on Myself  , not just family and rest of Duniya. It’s my life . Priority should be ME .

Let me sing and dance , it makes me happy .

Let me take fake medical leave at job  and go vacation with friends , acting stupid with them brings me lot of smiles.

Let me go alone to my own home ( my maternal home ) and feel like the same little kid of my Dad , as resting on his shoulder has the power even today to make  me Befikar .

Let me plan a solo foreign  trip  , this is what I crave for , I wish I plan soon (God helps)

Let me be my valentine !!Let me love myself ! Let me gift myself—“The  Real Happy Myself

I am writing it as a part of #chatterprompts by Blogchatter.

Read my appreciated  #chatterprompts post : A letter to my unborn child 

Gift myself

 

 

2 Replies to “I wish to gift myself, I wish to be my valentine”

  1. My post on the prompt is on the same lines. I totally get it when you say ‘loving myself’ and I would not judge you for that like few people do saying- people who love themselves are Narcissists. But little do they know it’s beyond the definition of being a narcissist.




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