A Letter to my Unborn Child

 

My unborn child

Within first year of my marriage , I had to undergo abortion.  It was followed by the feelings  of sadness, pain (more of sentimental), loss  and regret. A   loving bond  with my  unborn child that  had started nurturing , had to breakdown within  few weeks . Today I express my emotions  in this letter to my Unborn Child.

A Letter to my Unborn Child 

I held you inside me for few weeks ,but didn’t get a chance to hold you in my arms.  I felt your heartbeat  inside me , but couldn’t  welcome you in the world  outside.

God didn’t give us a chance to cuddle  with each other , but  the memories of your little movements inside my tummy  are afresh in my mind.  Your little kicks didn’t hurt me but used to bring smile on my face.

We were growing our emotional bond when God suddenly changed his plans. We were not allowed to continue our love for long but the bond we made even in those few weeks  , is  precious for me , and  it always would be.

When Doctor laid me on hospital bed , a long instrument was used to dislodge you from me .  I know that the pain you felt must have been much much more than me.

But my dear Baby , I was helpless. I felt paralyzed to save you.  My helplessness flowed in the form of tears. I am  so sorry that I couldn’t save  you Baby !  I still don’t know whether you were a girl or a boy but I loved you so much my dear !

Even today , after so many years , occasionally  I am reminded of  that attachment &  love which then sneaks out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks, sometimes wets my writing papers.  I do wipe away that liquid love but it feels impossible to  ever  be able to wipe away the love I had with you, as you were my first child, although Unborn Child.

My unborn child

This post is written as a part of #chatterprompts by Blogchatter

Unborn child

Linking to #quotedstories

 

 

 

11 Replies to “A Letter to my Unborn Child”

  1. Don’t feel sad Monika.I am sure God had a plan so that your baby could be born stronger.No life is ever lost.The energy remains and is reborn.

  2. I am so sorry for your loss and I can understand your emotions and pain…it is disheartening and I know that child loss is not just a loss, it is an indescribable journey of survival. time is the only thing that heals wounds and a broken heart.

  3. It’s sad for a Mother to go through this but I m sure God had something good in store. They gave you a beautiful and strong daughter. Thanks for linking up with #QuotedStories Monika.

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